Love...

Love. I know, one of the most common of words that you would find in all walks of life today. There is love in songs, there is love in movies, there is love on TV, there is love on books, there is love on blogs and there is love that your friends talk about.

But is it really worth it?
Is it worth the pain?
Is it really worth all the praise that it gets?

Isn't love supposed to be a wonderful thing? Isn't love supposed to be good. Then why is the failure in love such a big crush? Love sounds like an addictive drug to me. It seems to have all the same symptoms.

When in love, you feel you are top of the world.
When taking drugs, you feel you are on top of the world.

When in love, you feel confident and do all your work to the best of your judgement.
When taking drugs too you feel confident enough to do things that you would normally not do.

When in love, you don't care about what people around you think.
When taking drugs too you don't care about what is happening around you.

When you fall out of love, you feel depressed and suicidal.
When you quit drugs too you feel depressed and suicidal.

I know that when you succeed in love, it helps you and drugs don't do anything of that sort. I know drugs are bad for our body and love is good. And I also know that this isn't a right comparison. But just look at the other side of love. When it fails........ Why is it such a horrible feeling? Why is it big enough to feel like the end of the world? Is love really worth all this?

I do love a lot of things around me. I love my dogs, I love my friends, I love my bike. But I don't love anyone (even me) that much that the loss would end the world to me.
I would be devastated if I lose my love, no doubt. I would be sad, I would cry. But I don't think I would lose my life for it.

Is any love worth this?

Maybe... But till proven otherwise I am going to stick to my decision that love is not worth it.

Companion for life... ???

What is the need for companionship? Why does one get this feeling that they need a "companion"? What is that special thing that this "companion" can give that a friend cant? What do we expect out of this companion? What sort of relationship is expected? Is it physical? Is it sex? But you don't need a companion to have sex. Then why do we need a companion?
I have never had a girlfriend or never have I been in love. I have never been sorry or felt that I have missed out on anything...... yet. But off late, I have started to feel, I might have missed out on something. Why have I got this feeling now? What has changed in me? What do I expect? What exactly have I lost by not being in love? Is it my age? What happens at this age? I can understand the need/craving for sex or bodily pleasures. But this is something else. This is not just physical pleasure. This is something else. Need for a companion. What do I expect out of this companion? If it is not physical pleasure then cant I get this need for a companion satisfied by a friend? It isn't like there is a person whom I want to be with. There is no one. I just want someone. Why is this? What do I crave? I cant think of what I want to do with this "companion", then what do I need a "companion" for? What sort of confused state of mind is this?

I guess this is what love is. I guess I will get the answers to my questions when I do meet this "companion" and get to spend my life with her.

Hope I find the answers to my questions soon. :)

The Mind...

What a powerful thing.... It can make you strong. It can make you weak. It can make you happy. It can make you sad. It can make you excited. It can make you depressed.
What a powerful ally or foe....
For some the mind grows as an ally naturally.
For some the mind rules everything.
For some the mind becomes an ally after a struggle.
For some the mind wins the struggle.

The mind if not properly controlled (have absolutely no idea how this has to be done.... ;)) can destroy you. I am sure all of us have experianced or atleast know of what "depression" is and what it can do to a person. It can kill... For many death seems a pleasant welcome when compared to depression.

On the other hand, a mind that is trained to look at life in an optimistic way full of oppurtunities leads to a trully "Happy" & Successful life.

Mind... Oh how I strive to be in control of it. I am one for whom it is a struggle to control the mind.
And I intend to control it even if it takes me my whole damn life to do it.

Funny thing. Think about it my decision to fight so hard against my mind is in itself a decision that is taken by my mind....... ;) An irony of sorts.....

Anyway I guess this is it for the spillage of words from my "mind" for today...

A boy and a girl....

My first blog.... This is pretty nice... The last time I wrote something from my heart was on my college autograph book when the grief of seperation was unbearable....

And here I am now spilling words from my heart as it is again unbearable....

The most common feeling in the world, "Love". Yet the most complicated feeling. Such a rarified and intricate feeling. A feeling so caught up between Joy and Pain that after a point it looses its ability to differentiate the two.

So much pain and yet so much joy. A lot of my friends have been in love, are in love and will continue to be in love. But I had the chance to see first hand an example of the true sense of love between two of my very close and dear friends. I know them for a while now and I also know about their love for each other. But it is during the past few days that I have been able to see the actual love that each of them have for the other. I was able to see the actual selfless love that I have only seen in movies and heard in stories.

A boy and a girl who love each other a lot and fit so well together they must be made for each other. A boy and a girl who have never even thought of harming anyone. A boy and girl who are so strong on their principles and beliefs. A boy and a girl though young, so matured and responsible. A boy and a girl totally in love with each other.

A boy who has decided to sacrifice his life for the happiness of others.
A girl who, unable to accept the boy's decision which has caused her intolerable pain, still thinks of the pain that the boy is going through.
A boy who is going through hell to keep away from the girl and not talk to her.
A girl who feels joys beyond this world at the sound of his voice over the phone and prays for his welfare even if it is away from her.
A boy who not wanting to worry others that he keeps the pain bundled up within his heart.
A girl willing to go through hell and back for him.

Why are they not together???

It aches my heart when I think about this boy and this girl.

I pray to the Almighty for a miracle that would help these two get together and be happy.

Ok, for most of u guys who are reading this, I am pretty sure, u dont get the picture. :) These are just words that have overflowed out of my heart..... Just the tip of the iceberg.